Right To Be Happy

There was no soul around,nobody who would pay attention
She silently moved out of the shabby looking room,her man was supposed to be waiting outside so they could leave but he was nowhere to be seen.
She called him but he dint pick up,she tried and tried and then gave up.
She looked for some vehicle that could drop her home but nothing she found.
Then pulled a car and a man came out,he snatched her phone and banged it to the ground, before she could understand what he was doing,another pulled her in and the car started moving.
She yelled and cried for help but all they did was laugh like hell,one scratched her body and the other smelled her hair..
After an hour people found her laying bare,she had scratch marks and lay there dead.
All her mother wished was to feel her breath,they left a note which said what they had done to her.her father tore to pieces when he read it clear,she was raped and killed and all people could do was stare..

Girls are precious, girls are a gift.They are not here just to be killed,There is more to a girl besides her body.
People should know that even they have the RIGHT TO BE HAPPY.

Everyday when i go through the newspaper,i see atleast one case of a girl being raped and killed.
Each one of them have a different story.It sends chills down my back when i read them.
I can do nothing besides praying that their souls rest in peace.

When you hold me close

Crazy long walks in the cold winter

Weather gives me chills

But with such a warm hand to hold

You hold me still

Neither do i shiver nor do i twitch

All i do is stare into your eyes

And try to find a reason

Which makes me yours

You hold me still

Just with the little tinkle in your eyes

Which tell me with every minute

That you are totally mine

As you grip your hands to my waist

I close my eyes

For the feeling of having you near

Is not easy for my heart to bear

It skips a beat and whispers your name

You hold me to your chest

You hug me real tight

You kiss my forehead
And i stupidly smile .. :)

It will not be easy..

Not easy it is for the beautiful lady
To see you laying there in white
To convince herself that you'll never be back home
To think she'll never hear you scold..
It will not be easy ,to stop waiting till midnight for you to come home
It will not be easy, to think you went..
She'll cry silently and wish her her life would end
Not easy it will be for her to survive, with the thought that her partner will now never arrive..

Not easy it is for your young boy
To think his dad wont be back
To think he'll go to school alone
There will be no hand to console him when he is low
Or to bring him new gifts
For there wont be a father who'll write for him on his birthday card
No father who'll make sure he eats
Even if he himself starves..

Not easy it is for the 7year old kid
To realise his daddy wont be back
That he'll have no hands to hold when he walks on those roads alone
It will not be easy to convince him that his father is no more
It'll not be easy to tell him,he will never no more hear you snore
Not easy will it be for the kid to hear
That the father he loves, will not be there to help him fight his fear
There will not be the man, who was his superhero
Daddy will never come home from his trip afar
Not will it be easy for him to know..

Not easy it will be for the mother
To think her son will never return
Not easy will it be for the sister
To think you're gone..

You went too away,you went too far but i know this well,that you're watching us all.
All i want you to do is to deliver my words to god, there is no one i hate more than him, this is not we should have got..

Perfection.

 

"Life isnt perfect..
There are ups,there are downs,wrong decisions,right paths..
Life isnt the way we expect,but shock it is when you get everything just the way you dreamt"

When she was 4,there was this cute little kid
They used to sit in class with each other everyday and used to share lunch.
Least did she know that he'd be what he is to her now someday..

Studied together till standard 5.
Till then,they used to be together all the time and were part of the same little group..

Things changed after that,classes shuffled and they lost touch..
It dint matter much,only kids they were..

Class 9,Both were put into the same class..
Though it took a month for them to talk,it never felt like they seprated..
Over the weeks and months that passed,he bacame the best friend she ever had.

Stupid laughs,sweet nothings,painful tears and breakup,he was there with her through it all.
They fought for what they had,dint let anyone or anything come between and somewhere between the smiles and whispers,He fell in love..
She dint know what to do,couldnt break his heart or see him sad
She made a decision she should never have
And told him she loved him back

Soon they broke up because her love wasnt true
He broke into millions of pieces and tried to get through
She cried in regret
He cried in desperation
She wanted the bestfriend back
He wanted her love to be back..

Seprated for months they stayed
Until she called him up one day
Said she was sorry and would make up for the mistake
He forgave her and said it was okay
Soon he realised he could not stay this way
For every moment he spent with her
Only made his day
And the thought that he couldnt have her blew up his mind
And all he did was stay up at nights.

She realised she wanted him
Because over the months,nobody could make her laugh the way he did
Nobody cared the way he did
Nobody made her feel the way he did..

She thought and regretted,the way she broke his heart
The way she ignored his calls and tore him apart
For now all she wanted,to tell him how she feels
But since she could not,she felt her heart bleed..
But one day came,when she couldnt take more
And said what she felt,without thinking anymore..

He jumped with joy,she smiled through tears
For he now had what he wanted
And she,felt clear..
They loved each other with all their heart.
And that is how,their lifes turned path..♥

In my heart,Somewhere :)

You've given me pains ill never forget
Times ill always regret
Through these eyes filled with tears
I try to see what next i have to bear
You love a new girl,you want her bad
But that is not what makes me sad
Its the memories that arent ready to leave my heart
Why dint you tell me you dint love me from the start?
The feeling of betrayl will always stay there
In my heart, somewhere..

I cluth the pillow tight and try to overcome the pain
But it only sinks me deeper
The memories,The touches,The kisses,The hugs
Time will fly by and ill move on
But your smell will always linger
My throat will always go rough each time ill say your name
The feeling that you were once mine
Will always stay here
In my heart, somewhere..

The little world we made for us
The little house we thought we'd have
The little kid we'd name
All has gone in vain
The sleepless nights we spent
Conversations that would never end
All of it will always be there
In my heart somewhere..

Your laughter your smile
Your lips on mine
Your hands around me
Your love for me
Was it all for real?
Or just a dream i dreamt ?

You'll always be there..In my heart somewhere..

11.11.11

Being happy is an important part of everybody's life.

That's the only reason we work upon things to make them better,so that they give us happiness.

Charity,love,care and everything else,all give us happiness.

But happiness is just a feeling..

We,humans,feel and believe what we see..

Our feelings and emotions change with the situation

Why so?

Why somebody or something else gets to decide if we should be happy or sad?

Why cant we control these feelings?..We can !

WE create our own happiness.

We create our own phase of depression or sadness.

11.11.11 Just passed ! :D
It was supposed to be a lucky day as it comes once in a REAL long time.
Though i dont believe in all such things,somehow,this day proved why it was being considered lucky by people all around the globe !..

It made me happy,Really really very happy but i wont say that it was the day,it was what HAPPENED that day so somehow,it was me who did all the efforts and got what i wanted so,kay,back off 11.11.11,i wont give you any credit :P
What happened was supposed to happen,sooner or later but it was totally out of my expectations that it would happen NOW.
Did anything nice and happy and lovely and XYZ happen to you too on 11th November?

Nikkita :D

The never ending pain ..

Heyoooooooo..
I have been away from writing since quite a month..
There was so much happening,Nothing good though.
Nothing that made me happy :/
All sadd news :/

Sometimes,Staying happy is just not your thing..
Everytime you try to be content and thankgod for what you have,something or the other doomly happens.
When somebody is snatched out of your life,your laughter and cheers ripped apart,you can feel your heart cracking and cannot hold yourself up anymore..This happens when somebody you love and adore goes away..
Nothing but memories are left
Streams of tears replace everyone's smile
Screams of emotional pain and hurt replace the sound of laughter but the loss is already done and is inevitable..
After a few days,Things change,Sense of realisation that nothing can be done now mists..


But apart from everything,I am glad about one particular thing
In between everything unstable i felt something i had been craving since long
Mental Stability !
A mental state where you know why you are sad or not content.
You arent confused or feeling all weird because of a reason you dont know.
I knew how to put back myself,Hold myself for everyone around,Hold myself for the people i love..
Although we had a bruis that can never be healed..
We still had the strength to stay integrated and stand together,The family i mean.
It feels really strong to know that even in the hardest times, Everyone dint sit apart with their own problems but came together and supported the weakest, kept aside their own personal grudges.


The news was this that we lost another member and he had to leave for the heavenly..
In the last 3years, its the 4th person who had to leave..



Rest In Peace Sudhir Bahl.You are missed everyday :')