Stupid SP :D

Hellloooo people !
11th April,She turned 16 :D
She is one crazy person
She is one EPIC personality of all times
She is forever alone in her new class [Heha :D]
And my closest friend :)
She means truck loads to me,and here is something i wrote for her .. :)

I know her for two years now
She's always made me smile
Wiping away my tear with her jokes
Every single time


She was there when i was low
And when i held my head high
She was there in every sorrow
And everytime she made me smile


I have seen her cry and laugh at the same time
I swear on god,it is a horrible sight
But in those beautiful eyes of hers
You can point out no pride
She lives her life simply
By making others smile


We laugh so hard that tummy aches
I just hope it never makes my heart fail
Through this journey of love and hate
She follows only her fate


No she wears no high heels,no high brand dresses
No she wears no make up,she doesnt iron her tresses
She is my pretty pyajama girl who loves what she has
And with that charming smile she carries
She's out to win the world !

Tinted

Have you ever had those times where you feel everything is just a fairytale or a scripted movie ?
Doesnt it feel awesome ?
Perfect friends,perfect family and everything is just the way you want it :D
Hehe,good times are here for me now :D
I dont have much to tell today,i am just feeling a little too good.






News people :D
I have thought that from now on,ill sometimes do an outfit post :D
So here is the first one :D






 

Okay i went a little out of the line posing here :P

I picked out the red pants i recently bought.
And a tee that took the first place in front of me when i opened the cupboard :P
The shoes are my favourite,despite the heels they have,i have walked miles in them and never they felt uncomfortable..
The belt is a random pick from the sarojini nagar market
The shades and the neckpiece are both gifted :)

A sad goodbye..

The past two years have given me experiences that have helped me grow and will continue to teach me all my life.
 Today seems like the end of an era,like everythings gonna change forever..not a big deal this should be but i dont know why,i feel it is.
I have been with and around people so different yet so similar. Everybody had such different personalites and view points but somehow,we love each other way too much to  feel offended by anything the other person says..
From crying over a friend  to laughing till i lost my breath,i have done it all..
There were times when we fought,when we could not stay calm but there were times when we felt blessed having each other too..
In a few months,we all wont be sitting in the same class room,looking at each other's faces and giggling uselessly,make whacky faces at each other,grin and show tongues like nursery children,irritating the teachers with our constant stupid queries,
asking jasminn ma'am all sorts of different questions.
The whole class wont yell together at simran to wake her up when the teacher spots her sleeping
We wont hear Divyansh singing amazing love songs out of nowhere
Kshitiz wont come up with stupid excuses for his improper uniform and make us all giggle
Sangeetha wont laugh her ass out and i wont laugh harder than her because she sounds funny..Paridhi will no longer still alone and dwell in the corner
Nayantara 's stupid expressions wont make me break out laughter in the middle of a serious class discussion. Samira's comments on how everybody is looking and how awesome the xyz commercial is will be missed and Bhumika's cute silly smile whenever i look at her ! Samriddh's constant commenting on me and saying all sorts of rubbish to spoting Siddheshwar brush up his weird facial hair and Pankaj protecting him like his girlfriend.. Akash and Raghav's PDA laughing sessions :P
Rishabh Bhargava and Gaurang's never ending fights :D Maaz's super huge and scary eyes, Pritpal's tattoo sessions! And how can i ever forget,Nitin kudada's shy 'hi' :D
 Rohan's stupid dance steps and acting :P And Bhardwaj's hand gestures ! These people are so amazing! Damn,i am gonna miss it way beyond i can explain..

But bhai saab,bda hi mushkil time tha,teachroin ne dimag khaa lia,aur hogyi hai ab almost hmari dasvi khatam :D

Mind disturbed..

I have never felt this way,i have never been so uncertain about what i want ever
I was pretty sure that this would work out,the feeling of being loved i thought was enough for me to be with him..
Over time,i felt real strong jolts of feelings for him
I have cried overnight for stupid fights that solved over time but today when i look back at the time i've spent with him,i find no very special memories
Maybe two or three are there but nothing that would give me butterflies in the tummy
I have felt special a zillion times
But felt like the worst person in his life too
I am sure he loves me tons but i am sure about this too that he's hurt me more than times countable..

Things may have appeared to him as small mistakes
And he might have said sorry
But the pieces done are still not fixed properly
There is still something hollow in the memories,something incomplete..

I dont know what i am gonna do about it,i dont know if it'll affect the love or not.
I wanted to do a happy post right now but my mind is thinking about nothing besides him..
And my heart aches..

Sorry for this,will show up with something nice soon.
Love,Nikki

VDay:Oh no !

Markets have been flooding with red
Roses
Heartshaped pillows
Cards
TeddyBears
Chocolates
The internet has been filled too with advertisements about various valentine's day celebration packages and things-to-do-for-him/her
And dont know what else !


Most teenagers i know go crazy when this day is around the corner
But in my personal opinion,promoting this day is nothing else besides giving way to a world market to get into our culture.
What people dont understand is that these days are just one of the ways to make money
For the sake of love and making your guy or girl feel special,you spend thousands of bucks buying useless gifts that end up only with you once you break up..
Celebrating love and togetherness is not about teddybears or chocolates,tell me,would you love him/her less if she does not buy you a stupid card that says 'I Love You' ?
What would you prefer,money spent on a stupid machine made card or a card made with love and effort by the one you love ?
I am not against celebrating valentines day..
I simply do not understand the idea of the gifts and dates and everything else


I have seen my single friends drool over what they see in the showcase shelf of Archies Galleries.
And i am damn sure once they get somebody who would be ready to buy them that stuff,they wont like it anymore :P
Anyhow,this is how i feel..
What do you think ?
Leave comments :)
And who needs a day to celebrate love man ? ;)

Jo hai,Sahi hai.. :D

As i opened his profile today,a slow song from my playlist started playing..
Its lyrics somehow said how little memories brush up old stories.
How everything is the same but your the one who is missing..
Yes i miss him
I miss his silly obsessions
I miss his goodmorning texts
I miss his loving inboxes
I love the way he made me smile
I love how life was so simple with him
From crying,i could be laughing the next second
I could call him whenever low and he himself used to get emoic :P
Whenever we fought,each others smiling face always got us back to normal
Even between super serious conversations,we could laugh our asses out at silly little things
I could share anything and everything
I used to call him dadda
And was his princess :)
But some weird things came along and our friendship couldnt last anymore
But all that happens,happens for a reason
I cannot control everything and get what i want
So i have learned and grown up to understand that its okay
Atleast i had him for 2 years :)I respect his point of view and he respects mine (I guess ! )
So start walking,dont look back,jo hai,sahi hai :D :D

So the point from this one is,not everything we want is possible
Not everything in life is permament,things change and we are left helpless
But still,whenever one door closes,several open
Everything happens for a reason,when you cannot do something,just let it be
Stay happy with the happy memories the person has left you with
Keep no grudges,respect their decisions and stay firm on yours
Life never waits,just move on :)

All while waiting..

Deep inside her
She had it stuffed
All that had made her
Suffer so much
Never did she show
Nobody ever came to know
What filled her heart
And what made her low
Celebrating joys and ignoring sorrows
She walked every way
Never did she complain nor she cried
Always smiled in the day
But in those nights
She missed a hand
A hand she used to hold


For two years they were together
But now he left her alone
He did not turn cold nor did he leave
He just went too far
And she could not believe
She cried at nights in pain and hurt
But made sure no one ever heard
For her love was true and she knew he would return


Staring at the stars she waits every night
Thinks about him and his flight
She wishes he would return soon from abroad
And take her hand with the love of god
She knew she'll marry him
And he wanted the same
She waited to hold him with no regret or shame
He was the best man she had ever seen..


She waited in and out
She waited day and night
And while waiting,all she did was smile..