We all have those days where we feel life is pointless.
The sun rises like usual,i was being forced to leave the bed like usual but then there was some urge that still made me be in bed,I wanted to cluth onto my pillow tight and just be there,trying to overcome the pain i dint know why existed.Somehow i managed to get up,look around my room but fell back on my bed.I laid there for another 15minutes,thinking about why i was in this mood.
I had so much to do.
I had so much to be happy about.
I had everyone,the night before i was with the bestest people in my life,laughing and rejoicing life.
But then this morning carried some sort of negitivity with it.A feeling of incompletion took over my mind and then the feeling of reality stroke me.What i had been trying to get off my mind was now struck into it.I tried shrugging the feeling off but the pain stabbed mE harder,i started breathing heavy.
After another 20minutes of silence,my ears heard my mother yelling aT me to get out of the bed,i checked the time,it was 12:30.
Although i have my birthday in a few days and have many reasons to be happy,there is something i will always miss.A part of me that i lost a little while back...
The sun rises like usual,i was being forced to leave the bed like usual but then there was some urge that still made me be in bed,I wanted to cluth onto my pillow tight and just be there,trying to overcome the pain i dint know why existed.Somehow i managed to get up,look around my room but fell back on my bed.I laid there for another 15minutes,thinking about why i was in this mood.
I had so much to do.
I had so much to be happy about.
I had everyone,the night before i was with the bestest people in my life,laughing and rejoicing life.
But then this morning carried some sort of negitivity with it.A feeling of incompletion took over my mind and then the feeling of reality stroke me.What i had been trying to get off my mind was now struck into it.I tried shrugging the feeling off but the pain stabbed mE harder,i started breathing heavy.
After another 20minutes of silence,my ears heard my mother yelling aT me to get out of the bed,i checked the time,it was 12:30.
Although i have my birthday in a few days and have many reasons to be happy,there is something i will always miss.A part of me that i lost a little while back...
