In my heart,Somewhere :)

You've given me pains ill never forget
Times ill always regret
Through these eyes filled with tears
I try to see what next i have to bear
You love a new girl,you want her bad
But that is not what makes me sad
Its the memories that arent ready to leave my heart
Why dint you tell me you dint love me from the start?
The feeling of betrayl will always stay there
In my heart, somewhere..

I cluth the pillow tight and try to overcome the pain
But it only sinks me deeper
The memories,The touches,The kisses,The hugs
Time will fly by and ill move on
But your smell will always linger
My throat will always go rough each time ill say your name
The feeling that you were once mine
Will always stay here
In my heart, somewhere..

The little world we made for us
The little house we thought we'd have
The little kid we'd name
All has gone in vain
The sleepless nights we spent
Conversations that would never end
All of it will always be there
In my heart somewhere..

Your laughter your smile
Your lips on mine
Your hands around me
Your love for me
Was it all for real?
Or just a dream i dreamt ?

You'll always be there..In my heart somewhere..

11.11.11

Being happy is an important part of everybody's life.

That's the only reason we work upon things to make them better,so that they give us happiness.

Charity,love,care and everything else,all give us happiness.

But happiness is just a feeling..

We,humans,feel and believe what we see..

Our feelings and emotions change with the situation

Why so?

Why somebody or something else gets to decide if we should be happy or sad?

Why cant we control these feelings?..We can !

WE create our own happiness.

We create our own phase of depression or sadness.

11.11.11 Just passed ! :D
It was supposed to be a lucky day as it comes once in a REAL long time.
Though i dont believe in all such things,somehow,this day proved why it was being considered lucky by people all around the globe !..

It made me happy,Really really very happy but i wont say that it was the day,it was what HAPPENED that day so somehow,it was me who did all the efforts and got what i wanted so,kay,back off 11.11.11,i wont give you any credit :P
What happened was supposed to happen,sooner or later but it was totally out of my expectations that it would happen NOW.
Did anything nice and happy and lovely and XYZ happen to you too on 11th November?

Nikkita :D

The never ending pain ..

Heyoooooooo..
I have been away from writing since quite a month..
There was so much happening,Nothing good though.
Nothing that made me happy :/
All sadd news :/

Sometimes,Staying happy is just not your thing..
Everytime you try to be content and thankgod for what you have,something or the other doomly happens.
When somebody is snatched out of your life,your laughter and cheers ripped apart,you can feel your heart cracking and cannot hold yourself up anymore..This happens when somebody you love and adore goes away..
Nothing but memories are left
Streams of tears replace everyone's smile
Screams of emotional pain and hurt replace the sound of laughter but the loss is already done and is inevitable..
After a few days,Things change,Sense of realisation that nothing can be done now mists..


But apart from everything,I am glad about one particular thing
In between everything unstable i felt something i had been craving since long
Mental Stability !
A mental state where you know why you are sad or not content.
You arent confused or feeling all weird because of a reason you dont know.
I knew how to put back myself,Hold myself for everyone around,Hold myself for the people i love..
Although we had a bruis that can never be healed..
We still had the strength to stay integrated and stand together,The family i mean.
It feels really strong to know that even in the hardest times, Everyone dint sit apart with their own problems but came together and supported the weakest, kept aside their own personal grudges.


The news was this that we lost another member and he had to leave for the heavenly..
In the last 3years, its the 4th person who had to leave..



Rest In Peace Sudhir Bahl.You are missed everyday :')