Teenage Dream

"As they drown deeper into the sea holding hands,they cry out loud
Not because they want their ownselves to survive
But because he wants her to live,live her dreams,face her fears,feel loved,mortal and everything that makes life happy
For she wanted the same for him
She wanted her companion to be who he wanted,grow old,love and live!
They are both still in each others arms,not ready to unlock the grip of their hands
They still want to be together,dont want to lose each other even for a second till they exist"

Rather than trying to get back on the land,the death has been accepted,the wait for the satan to come and take their souls has come."

Every girl in her early teeenage wishes for that perfect story.If not the prince charming then the one who treats her like a queen,his queen!
One who would love her,adore her,cry for her and go beyond his limits just to see her smile.
It is often said,one who gives too much,expects too much.
Guys go on asking the same thing,why is she so annoyed all the time?
Why does she need a constant reminder for i love her?
Why does she want me to do silly little things?
It is because it makes HER happy!
It makes HER smile!
And more than anything,it makes her fall for you even harder.
Then comes the next phrase,The breakup!
We have all been through a breakup,here i am talking about the first breakup from the one you actually LOVED.We feel we are not enough,every effort you did for the relationship to go right went in vain and your never gonna love again.All the stuff that's said about it,eat ice cream,stay away from sad music or stuff that remind you of the past blah blah blah.What people dont get is that your in no mood for advices,your not gonna follow them no matter what you do.You simply need time just by yourself to put yourself together and get out of the whole thing.
I have been through it all,like any other normal teenaged girl.
I fell in love,was taken to the ninth cloud and then dropped from there.All shattered and broken but there was one thing that got me through.This is what my dad always tells me when i am low.

"You fall down,you get hurt,you cry but after a while you forget about it and go back to normal.So why not now?Its not ending your life.Sit down for a while,cry,think,about it but then let it go."

And then you move onn,you simply accept the fact you cant/wont be with him/her.you learn to compromise and put yourself down and most importantly,you see the way things actually are and the day you realise,you see the fairytales as fake and fictious.
Enough of this now!
I so drown into emotions some times :P
Even after all of these experiences,i remain a douchebag :P
I fall for every chance i get that can maybe make my dream come true!
What now is my fairytale?..
Well,all i can tell you now is that its real hard for it to come true but i am trying. :)
Love,Nikkita*

Thats my favourite picture.There's a secret behind it *Glowing eyes*

I Give Up..

Now is when i am gonna give up.
Cant handle more.
Cant take any more of your blunt ways
Cant bear the pain anymore
Its high time we seprate
Cuz' staying together is not the way
I tried mending
I tried getting it back but i guess
I tried too hard for something i always knew i would never get
Guess the first year we spent together
Was the only time both me and you were meant to be.


Maybe i would change my mind a few seconds,minutes or maybe hours later
But at this moment,this is what i think is right
Because baby i have loved you with all my heart,
But this is what i think


I guess what i craved on the lonely nights were only sweet words of love
Something you told me every now and then while we had been together
That is still what i want
I just cannot understand,what this feeling is,is it love?
Do i want it?
Am i holding on to you a bit too much?
Do you actually feel for me?
Is it really worth?
Are you really the one?
Well for now i am in a fix.
Hope i will find my answers when i try to sleep tonight
All i know is i need you now,i needed you then and baby,I need you forever !

Be who you are.

We have all been through a stage where we see that being who we are is not the best option,We feel we wont be accepted,We might get insulted or illtreated or might feel out of the group.
I have been through it too,Like everyother teenager.

As the first day of 9th grade preceeded,I entered my new shuffled class.I knew  almost everyone there,had a few friends too(That is pretty obvious!) but there was no face i was used to being around everyday.
The people i thought i belonged with were in no way similar to the kind of friends i had earlier.I was the kind of girl who loved pink,would cry over a broken nail.The kind people generalise as 'Delicate'..I dint consider myself one though.The friends i had earlier knew me well,knew my likes,dislikes.They liked being around me.When around them,I could effortlessly be who i wanted to be.

Yeah so this new group i was now with,it was not easy for me to fit in,though now i feel they are the best people i know.
I pretended to be one of them,like one of them but soon as time went by,i realised they were not ONE person,they were all different characters grouped together,everybody was different,everybody was special in their own kind of way and i being a dumbass tried being everyone.
So i got out of the pretentious mask i used to hide behind,put on my real self and to my surprise,i could feel myself enjoying and loving the new group i had.Everything seemed easy,talking without thinking got me into troubles though :P but since i had backup of the best people around,i got out of that too,with my head still high.
I dont care what people think,i am proud of who i am and so should you be.Thats what i learnt through my 9th grade.

I am bad at endings : |
But here is a try,BYE ! :P